I wish… I wish… January 12, 2009
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The Christmas and New Year holidays weren’t that spectacular, I mostly stayed at home chilling, and watching DVD’s which have piled up because I was too busy to watch them. I enjoyed the rest, although work is always there. Our peak season is December and I had to monitor the stores.
I did take some time to take stock of what I have and why I wasn’t “ecstatic”. Bottom line is that I have all that I need, but some things I want but don’t have. It led me then to count my blessings. I do know I’m not yet where I want to be, but there’s no use complaining. I have to make sure I fix my sights on the goal and work on getting there. For a while now I have been waiting for things to happen, but like what Oprah said, we gotta take control of ourselves and our lives.
One of the things I realized that held me back is the fear of failure. With age comes caution, because of experiences good and bad, and lessons learned. But I think I am too cautious lately, and I realized I want the Jenny who took chances to come back.
A friend once told me that sometimes, we are afraid to walk the plank, because we’re afraid to fall. But a lot of times when we do, we’d find out beneath the plank is not a 100 feet fall, but just the floor.
So I’m doing some stuff to “walk the plank”.
- I’m going back to the gym tomorrow. I don’t care if I don’t lose weight, but I’m going to get some exercise. I love working from home, but the only walking I do is to go to the bathroom. Even my food is brought upstairs because work was nonstop. So time to move my butt.
- I’m going to start a business this year. What it is I’m not yet sure, I have some options. But what is holding me back is the fear of failure. But then business is always a risk. I have to have a good concept though before I let it fly.
In terms of wishes, I’m happy because when I look at my wishes, so many of them have already been granted. But who doesn’t have more wishes?
- I want a macbook! My HP2710 tablet is only 6 months old and I hate it already. So far, in a month, the paint of the keyboard has chipped away. The supplier replaced it, but then on it’s 5th month “hibernate” and “sleep” stopped working. Whenever I start the computer it takes me at least 5 tries for the screen to stop blacking out and booting properly. Windows Vista. Sigh. But I’m not getting into debt to get it. Will save money before buying it!
- Car and a driver. The car is easier to attain. But I need to be able to afford to maintain a driver. I don’t like driving. I’m too used to working while travelling, I’ll probably end up bumping some car because I was too distracted. I hate parking as well.
In the meantime, it’s cab and my sister’s van when possible. - My landlady increased my rent. I appreciate that she didn’t for 3 years, but it’s still so heavy. I hope to find a cheaper place but dog friendly later this year. I’ll start hunting by June or July. Any of you have recommendations do let me know, but it has to allow labradors. No way am I giving up Fluffy!
- I want my tummy to be smaller than my chest. Right now it’s the other way round. Hehehehe I don’t wish to become skinny. I’ll never be skinny and I accept that. I’d be happy to drop 1 size from my 4x this year, and I want to be able to see my toes when I look down. If I can’t, it should be my chest I see, not my tummy.
- Go on my Star Cruise. Last year I was happy to join my sister for the Hong Kong Disneyland trip. This year I hope to have one more vacation. At least once a year. I hope it’s the Star Cruise, if not, then somewhere cool
- Have more time to go out with friends and family. Been so busy, still am. Besides, I have to save money and whenever we go out, we spend.
- Succeed in creating a new business for myself and earn extra income.
- Bring Get Laud to new heights and help my sister with business.
That’s it. Other than that, I’m happy. I look around and I know I got most of what I need, and even some I can live without. I used to have a long list, it got shorter, and I’m thankful for that
