Friendships and Betrayals July 30, 2009
Posted by jennipot in Life.trackback
At this age of 40, I can say I’ve been through hell and back. When people talk about ghosts, I always tell them that people are a lot scarier than ghosts. Look at all the atrocities that man do against each other especially to those who are weaker. Look at the cruelty man can inflict on nature and animals.
Closer to home, when I experienced tragedy in 1996 and lost everything, one of the first people I lost when I found myself penniless was the person closest to me. It was a very dark time in my life because from many friends I ended up with very few friends. A scene I remembered was when the sheriff threw me out of our store, there were lots of people watching. All of them I knew since I was a kid, but no one would meet my eye. Everyone pretended they didn’t know me. Only 2 people then gave me support, a friend of mine Rina, and my brother in law.
As I tried to get back on my feet, I myself didn’t have much time to spend with my rich friends because I didn’t feel comfortable that they are always paying the bill. There’s also the pain of seeing what I have lost, and shame that people might see me. For a while I thought I didn’t have a right to be happy again, so I became an expert at being miserable. But that’s another story.
The good part though is that those friends who have stuck by me even then and til now, I treasure forever. And the new friends I made in my 2nd life, I also treasure, because I knew they care for me just because I’m me.
I have always been so open to people, eager to trust and make friends. In my 2nd life I learned to be more careful. One kind of people I hate most is those who’d take advantage of you or step on you even when you’re already down. They’d even push you further into the mud. One time there’s this “friend” who was also a supplier who owed me money. She asked me to meet her so she can pay me back, and when I saw her, she showed me her bag, slashed, cried and said she lost the money. Later on I found out it was all a scam. She slashed the bag herself.
There were other similar experiences. And today I found out that even though age and experience had taught me to be more careful, I still got fooled by a person I thought I could trust. It makes me quite sad for a while, but then, I handled it the same way I did those people who betrayed me before. I refuse to dwell on them anymore, life is just too short and I’d rather be happy. Life has taught me that karma does exist, and sooner or later, bad things people do will come back and bite them in the butt. It may not be the payback we expect but payback does happen.
Saddest part is, it’s usually about money. I always say that money isn’t everything but it sure makes life easier. But some people would sacrifice friends and family for money. I never understand that. Aren’t people smart enough to know that it’s just not worth it?
I can’t say much, because I promised someone I’d keep quiet, but if you read this and you’re the one who made a fool out of me, I’m so sorry for you. You know me enough that I make friends for life, and I love for life. But when a person betrays my trust, that’s it. You are no longer in my life, and I will not spend another minute feeling sad. In fact, I am so glad I found out. And the money you filched from me? That’s my tuition fee, price I pay for knowing what a liar you are. Thank goodness I found out.
But this won’t make me shut myself from other people. I won’t let anyone ruin my chances at finding new and good friends. It’s always a risk I know. And I just have to keep my eyes open, while keeping my heart open as well. 
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